Thursday, July 17, 2008

I Will Not Be Deterred

Well after two days of excruciating abdominal pain I finally went to the doctor. No diagnosis yet, just theories. I have to go for some additional testing on Wednesday morning. In the meantime I have some medication she hopes will help with the pain. I hope it works because I need to get back to Jesus. I have been so diligent about praying and reading my bible in the morning and before bed. But when you spend three hours crying because you feel like you want to die, it kinda doesn't happen. And when you oversleep for work because you've been up half the night, you don't have the time to read before you leave.

But I will not be deterred. If I have to put in my audio bible while I'm writhing in pain, I'll do it. I'll pray in the car on the way to work or while I'm brushing my teeth. I'll just be kneeling in my heart. Why? Because I feel like a flower in need of water. I need the Living Water. And I need Him in good measure. This life is too hard without Him. Jesus said "If anyone is thirsty, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him." (John 7:37-38, NIV) And Lord knows I need a good long drink of Jesus!

My desire is to be like the believer described in Psalm 1:1-3; "Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is on the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers."

So If y'all will excuse me, I'm going to go to Jesus, drink in His love and sink my roots deeper into the Word. Have a blessed night all!

4 comments:

Leebird said...

Lord,

I ask you to minister healing to my sweet sister Mari as she deals with this mystery abdominal pain. Relieve her suffering and reveal to the doctors what the trouble is.

Thank you for Mari's hunger and thirst for You. Be her portion today, the lifter of her head, and Mighty counselor, and the great physician.

Thank you for blessing my life with her thru She Speaks. Let her writing endeavors be met with supernatural favor in just the right places so that others may be encouraged, challenged, and strengthened thru her gifts. In Jesus' Name I pray, AMEN! Love you Mari! Lee

Lelia Chealey said...

Oh Mari, will be praying for you, let us know. And yes, keep seeking Him my friend!

Yolanda said...

Mari,

I read your posting late yesterday evening while my husband was gone to Men's night fellowship at our church, and I have prayed for you several times. God's perfect, healing touch.

Lovingly,
Yolanda

Pamela (MrsJoeB) said...

Friend, I am playing catch up here and I do hope you are feeling better-it couldn't be related to your pepsi (that was it correct?) addiction?

Keep us posted!!

In His Graces~Pamela